{Not words you want to hear from your pediatrician}

We made it 30 days this time.

That's four weeks longer than with Wells.

A whole month of feeling lucky and thankful and grateful that we have a normal healthy baby.

I think, no I know, we still do.

Tag's going to see a pediatric cardiologist this morning.

His pediatrician found a loud murmur in his heart at his check-up on Thursday.

This could mean so many things.

Including nothing.

So that's what I'm going with.

Until they tell me otherwise.

But honestly, it makes me want to vom.

They found a soft murmur when he was born due to a small whole in his heart but it healed itself by discharge.

They heard it on the Tuesday he was born.

And on Wednesday.

They listened for it on a Thursday, and a Friday, and a Monday.

Nothing.

We were at a teaching hospital so all levels of doctors listened for it and none could find it.

Now it's back.

And bigger.

And louder.

Or it's a new one.

Time to pray